Mixed Emotions...

Today, June 20, 2018...

My baby, Chad Michael... okay, he's not a baby anymore, he is 17 going on 30. Serious! He is the youngest of my three sons, and the only one to have any relationship with me at this point in time, thats okay, I accecpt and respect that my two older boys are on their own journey.

But.. today, Chad left for two weeks to go visit his dad back home, Illinois. I am divorced, something I had to do, after twenty years of marriage, I knew it was the best for all of us.. And so be it, August 20, 2015, documents stamped, signed and filed. As I was alone today, I had too much time to be in my head. Thinking of what was and what is now. Sometimes it's lonely, sometimes it's sad, other times it's happy, all smiles and giggles. I never imagined myself to be where I am today, California. As I reflect, I already miss Chad and it's only day one. The count down to two weeks is etched on my heart. I am beyond lucky to have a son like Chad. I miss him to pieces.

May today and every day find you peace and happiness with yourself, friends and loved ones.